November 2012

 Thursday, November 1, 2012 ~ 8:34 am

 (Earlier today) I was feeling tired of this whole situation.  Beaten and, I don’t know, rather foolish and abandoned.  I was thinking “what is the whole point if the Messages are always the same?”  Okay, Message delivered, end of contact.  Right?

It was in this dejected frame of mind that He would not wait for me to come upstairs to get my journal and pen.  I grabbed the first pen and paper I saw (sketch pad) because His Words, were so not insistent or strong, but a bit of both.  Perhaps reassuring or more of a promise like to a child.  “Trust me little one.  If you do as I say now, in a few minutes you will see a grand fireworks display and you will have a fine candy apple to enjoy.” That’s what it felt like.  A promise and a reassurance to a child.  I am so sleepy all the time…

The children must act to get things (or) this done. They must pray also. Lead them to Me for they have been forgotten. Their souls are at risk. They are not being taught My Way. 

About My love for them.  Do not regret (or) fret. I know you are tired. Do not give up for the best is yet to come. Do not doubt My Words. Though you think sometimes with others this is a joke, it is not.

***

My sweet Pope who does so well. He will guide you also, for things within the world, earth, will become tumultuous. 

More tumultuous?!

Think not of your family for I will protect them. All of those people you love, by My Grace will be protected as My gift to you for your service to Me.

Yes, God is good.  Great are You, dear God!  Thank You. 

You must listen to Me, Child. Your work is very important. Do not take My messages lightly. 

Though they may sound the same, over and over, Trust in Me, they are not the same. 

Be aware of this always. Trust your guide for he is good and pure. Do not sit idle. 

Love Me and worship Me at Church. Now, I say, people will begin to notice My light within you.

Do not doubt this. Everywhere you are they shall see it. You must go to Confession and take the Eucharist. It is the most holy of all holiness. Respect the Eucharist. It is My love manifested Divinity for all to witness. For all to benefit.  For all to be saved and yet so few benefit. Children must be taught to take it worshipfully, prayerfully, with respect and reverence. 

Dear Lord, what else shall I do?  I am a fool as a whole.

Never call yourself a fool, for you are precious and the one of many that I have chosen to guide mankind from its sin.  I have chosen children to help Me because Your hearts are pure.  Your love for Me is purest. I love My Children.

So do not doubt My love for you and do not doubt your role. You will do great things on My behalf. Do not fear.  Remember, you will be the bearer of a great light. You are so beautiful, My Child. Do not be afraid, for I am always with you.  Always.  Be at peace.

Pray for our priests. Pray for the babies and children who will be scared. Pray for their parents who must start taking the Eucharist prayerfully. For your father.  Peace.

Later.  1:38 pm 

My mind is being drawn back *** that for every one person who ridicules me, ten others will be saved.  Those are some good numbers. *** Next, regarding the ridicule and whatever light people will see in me for better or worse. I mean, where does all that start and how?  I know I need to go to confession.  Maybe I’ll head out today before the Grand Emptying of the Stinky Fridge. (Hurricane Sandy left us without electricity and all of our food spoiled.)

Friday, November 9, 2012  1:08 pm

As I walked passed my bed, I looked at my dream catcher and wondered how other religions fared.  Was it only Catholics that could be saved (given their worship of our Holy Mother)? What of the Israelites and of the peaceful Muslims? ***

Do not wonder how all roads will lead to Me. I am for every living being on earth. I ask that all come to Me in earnest.  There is no glory in turning to darkness. 

Light the kingdoms quickly, for the time is coming when the thief shall come in the night to ravage your lives.  He will strike quickly when you think you are safest.

Beware of the twelve. There is one amongst them who is destined to lead them all, (I saw a vision of Ahmadinejad - Iranian leader at the time.) and your leader is like a lamb to his slaughter. All of his decisions, in good faith, will lead you down his desired path.

Take heed. The Children must come to Me now. It is vitally important. All of those seeds of destruction have been planted. Pray to Me and My Holy Mother who will provide protection for the children. Love thy neighbors.  Bring hope to others; to those who will listen.

As I have told to you, worry not for your family or those whom you love.  It is My gift to you. 

You are to remain vigilant.  My light is in you now.  You must have courage soon.  All things will be as I said.  Do not interpret but watch. Things will become clear as it comes closer.

 You are My happy child.  Share your joy with others.  Know that I lead your every step.  That I smile when you smile.  Your laughter is like music. Happy am I to have chosen you. Trust in Me and you will not falter. Continue to pray for the priests as you do.  They must also learn to forgive themselves. Pray for the little ones.  The children.  Pray for the unbelievers. Love.

Thank you, Father.

Sunday, November 11, 2012 (no time recorded)

I have had several flashes of possible insights. Visions of things that feel quite certain to happen.  God has told me not to interpret so I will write this down without expectation, but only as observations *** And I’ve nothing to show that I am correct about anything at all.

God has given me miracles. I want always His confirmation. I never want my ego or self

to be involved in the interpretations of these thoughts. Already I am being assaulted. Even…especially perhaps…at Mass. As I thought so proudly of Fr. Lawrence’s Mass, I was attacked by horribly impure thoughts during Communion.  They came from nowhere and assaulted my meditations and I fought to get the devils out of my prayers.  I listened harder to my prayers and banished them in Jesus’ name.  I wrapped myself in His loving arms and listened to the music.  They assaulted me for several minutes before giving up.  I think everything is going to get worse.  God will lead and direct me as He promised.  I only need to be patient, have courage, be strong, and love Jesus. ***

 November 16, 2012  Sometime during the evening after a long day in Amsterdam. (transcribed on November 21, 2012)

 Before I write the message, I must describe Amsterdam and how astonishingly different the city is from what my memory of it was.  I recalled a charming, clean city, with cafés intertwined with occasional coffee shops – the inevitable red light district amongst old churches, well-dressed young people talking astutely as they walked; a beautiful museum, and breath-taking treats around each cobblestone corner.

Now, it is a city entrenched in pot and young people walking around pie-eyed and foolish.  They can barely walk so groups of stoned twenty-something’s hold each other up like bookends.  The charming streets I remember have turned into base fields of stores meant to attract tourists with coarse tastes.  Coffee shops outnumber cafés.  And there is nearly never a wall untouched by loads of graffiti. It is sad and depressing and it was a relief to leave the city.  It makes me wonder where the leadership has gone…. Anyway, enough of the context.  The state of Amsterdam is what is important.

This is the state we find My people in. My Children are lost throughout the World.

It is an affront to Me. It makes Me weep.  How can these Children kill (or damn) themselves over such things? Oh, if they knew what they do to My heart. You must pray for them that they may be saved, for I love them too and want them safe. I will show you How it must be done.

It was at this point I was interrupted by (my husband). I do feel, however, that the message was complete at this point.  The anger from him was extremely difficult to bear (he has been annoyed with me regarding this experience and my talking about God so much).  God reminded me that this sacrifice would save others. In that case, we are up to 30 souls.  I hope He doesn’t mind me counting.  It cheers me up. Later, when we were in London and hewas not sulking anymore, I received another.  I don’t recall the date or time, but say it would be between November 18 or 19, 2012.

November 18 or 19, 2012  while in London – time not recorded

I would like to be particularly clear on how things are said here. The meaning of first sentence is “look at my children”; “watch them closely.”

Watch closely, not (just) with your eyes but with your heart, My Children. See them suffer, how they are lost to My Word. Watch how they Make Me weep. Bring them to Me.

Watch, for this is the world as it sits. There is no unity or respect.

Be patient with him for he too will come around and his spirit is important to Me as well.

Have faith, for I love you. Peace. 

I prayed about my husband’s reaction before and after the message, basically asking, “Help me with his reaction.” He has made it so hard.  Inside I heard a reply, like a faint sound. It is a sacrifice but remember, for every sacrifice, ten are saved.

That is what He has told me since I’ve been away.  It is funny that I ever thought I wouldn’t hear from Him!  As if a vacation would mean He would ignore Our Work!

Sunday, November, ~24, 2012 10:00 am (Ship time)

As I tried to meditate and pray the rosary completely for the first time in what felt like years, I prayed for myself – to curb my fears and the anxiety and depression I can feel creeping up on me, and for the Children and Priests and the new Cardinals appointed by Pope Benedict.  I feel that it is important we pray for them.  I have a bias for the new Nigerian cardinal, I’m sure.  But we should pray for all of them.  I’ve been reminded not to interpret anything, but it is hard because everything is cryptic and difficult.  I was drawn to Kings 14, and I could make no sense of it.

I know He is not abandoning me, but because I have not heard from Him in days, it feels like a lifetime and I wish very much that He would speak to me.  It is like I cannot enjoy anything without feeling Him near, even though I know instinctively He is near.  I crave His little gifts of miracles and hello’s.  But I hear nothing.  Even uninterrupted I find it difficult to pray.  I expect to be disturbed at any moment.  I had hoped that if I were to put pen to paper, something would occur, but no…in His time. Not mine.

Friday, November 30, 2012 4:13 pm

You are healing people and will heal people.  Do not doubt this will be true. People will run.

They run now and they run from My Pope.

Is this You?  Am I right?

Trust in Me. I hear your prayers even when you believe I am no longer near.  You of all people should understand this! Have faith, Child, for larger things are coming (or) come. 

Do not sit idle.  I have work for you to do.

Yes, Israel, my favored land is in trouble.  Close to annihilation as the world watches. It is clear to all and yet we (or) all step aside and watch. Can no one see this is against my greatest wish?

You have seen (You saw) the waste.  It has shocked (depressed) you.  You are dismayed.  

Do not let your tongue become a weapon of waste, filth. If you are to follow Me,

You must put down your swords and needles and Love, even those who have offended, deeply offended you and yours. They are Mine as well. 

Pray for all peoples. You are living in times when you cannot afford to be frivolous with your love. Do not lay to waste what I have given you. It is My blessing. Why shall you forego such gifts? Little Lambs, I do not want you to fall over the Cliff, but I cannot help you once you do. By My Love, it is permanent, but I give you My Loving hand to grasp

And I will save many. Do not doubt.

Peace be with you and yours. Do not fret for I am always near. And I love you, My Child.